Friday, March 31, 2006

Friday Confessional

I mean, Friday is as good a day as any to confess things, right?

So, here I go.

I've always (well, at least since I've been old enough to do so) wondered what it would be like to make love to another woman.

I don't know that this wondering is enough to class me as bisexual, but certainly as bicurious.

See, I think of human sexuality as being a sort of continuum, with 100% straight at one end and 100% gay at the other, and everyone falls along that line at some point. Maybe I'm just somewhat further towards the center than most. (By the way, I also don't believe that anyone is 100% gay or straight. It could be 99% and 1%, but not 100%.)

All my relationships have been with men. I have a definite attraction towards men. I've just always kind of wondered what it might be like with someone who is smaller, softer, rounder.

I don't even know, if I had the chance to make love with a woman, if I would even be brave enough to take it! I tend towards cowardice, unfortunately.

So, since I am more than content in my current relationship, my bicuriosity shall continue as it has always been. A passing glance shared with a beautiful stranger, an admiration of a female form, a fantasy, a dream.

It may be more beautiful as a dream than it could be as a reality.

(For those who might be concerned, Tirithien already knows of this inclination of mine and accepts it fully. Blogland is not the place to drop such a revelation on one's beloved!)

10 comments:

Bougie Black Boy said...

OH LORD... I want you to do Friday Confessionals more often. I agree with you. I don't think people are 100% anything....

Bainwen Gilrana said...

Oh, come on now, I don't think I have enough dirt in my past to warrant regular Friday Confessionals. The things that are hidden are probably things I just haven't gotten to yet.

Well, except for that one thing...

And that one other thing...

Oh, and there was that time...

;-)

Bougie Black Boy said...

I think I might have to do a Friday Confessional... or Sunday Confessional

Tirithien said...

I do accept it fully, my Bainwen. :-) Just means we can admire more people. :-p

naneth said...

Maybe you could do a quarterly confessional, Bainwen?!

No surprise, guys, she already brought this up while still in college. And I agree, I don't think people are 100% anything either. If they say they are, they're lying. If they think they are, they are kidding themselves.

martie said...

I agree with the other comments about no one being a hundred percent anything.....and I think if everyone is totally honest with themselves they would admit that they have wondered the same thing!

Bougie Black Boy said...

I dont think a quarterly confessional is enough... Maybe every last friday of the month.

clew said...

Now THIS is interesting!

You're awesome, girl! I'm glad you are comfortable with who you are, in every aspect. I'm glad to know you. :)

Bainwen Gilrana said...

Okay, you all rock. :-)

I will have to think of shocking new things to confess on a regular basis, or else do new naughty things on a regular basis so I can confess them on my blog!

Sensual Demoness said...

One should definitely not place arbitrary limits on sexuality. Just because the societal tendency is towards heterosexuality, it doesn't mean that this is what we are all created for. ;)